Tuesday, September 30, 2014

All growing

I notice I haven't been writing on this blog as regularly as I used to. Things have been hectic again.. my mood has been up and down. In the material world I felt like I was stuck and 'progress' was not to my liking.. Slow.. No traveling or much moving going on.

Now things get into swing so quickly again that I realise things did not stand still. It was merely a time of getting rid of old things and patterns that were of no use anymore and collecting energy to get back into motion.
I don't think I could take you all with me into my 'new' frames of perception.. explain what the growth I have been apparently growing feels like. It is a lot.. The stories on what life looks like from here get weirder, ever more interesting, but also much more 'not normal', not something easily explained from the old 'normal' frame.
On the other hand, everyone will have experienced the same kind of schwung as I have, just in their own way. I might not even need to explain a new point of seeing from. You have grown as well.

A week ago I participated in a Kambo-ceremony.. It was an amazing experience and I feel that the process has cleaned me out completely and snapped me into my core self at once.. Pow! As soon as I was trough the (very short but very intense) cleaning out process there I returned to the circle and felt completely blissed out.
Wow, this is what my Self feels like. This is powerful! This is bliss! And the group process was as amazing as that; all clean in that moment and moving together like the one being that we are.. This is what family feels like! This is what I want my life to look like!


So now, the frog has made 'all heaven break loose'.. Many goings on..
I might write more soon.. or might write later.
Please let me know if there is anything in particular you would like to hear more about.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

Leaping out of the old

Path to the forest

For years and years (or maybe already since childhood, who knows..) I have felt stuck for periods of weeks or months or years, followed by a nice flowing bit of feeling 'unstuck'. A slow and heavy feeling in my body, tiredness, sadness and difficulty to do much that probably a lot of people who have suffered depression will recognise.
I have been up and down, and now faster and faster learning and turning my spiral upward, to my relief.

This devil has been in my family's women's line for a long time I guess. My grandmother, her sister and my mother have dealt with this as well. I feel it is time for me to end this now. It is time to prepare for the New Time and this devil is not going to go with us, nor with me, nor with us as a collective. :)

Tomorrow I will have a wonderful animal spirit helping me with this.. I am a bit afraid, but I also feel thankful and excited.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Do you stuff your goals into tiny boxes?

Taking a walk

With some help from my friend, Jan Pieter, I woke up to the realisation that I have been compromising my goals and inner drivings. What crazyness.
I have been looking at what it is in life that really attracts me, that makes me jump around for joy doing.. and then I stuffed it into small, pre-existing, neat boxes that fit into the society of this time.
My focus has been on building my business and finding a place to live - the old way. And this is in no way close to what my heart really desires.

A little while ago I proclaimed that I would never live in an ordinary house all by myself. That I do not appreciate these stone, straight walls. So why on Earth am I looking around for appartments now? Because I think this is the way things are done?
To be honest, the thing that normally attracts me the most in houses are the balconies and windows, the views and portals to outside.. And after that the desks, creative spaces and comfortable reading places - places of opportunity, where new things and experiences can be created. Oh and the fact that you can stash away things in a house and keep them dry, as well as keeping myself dry. Maybe even washing clothes, showering and resting in a quiet place. But after all that, I want to get out!

Cris-crossed tree

I vowed to myself that I would take a walk in nature every day from now on, and I couldn't be more thankful to myself. What a wonderful thing. Every walk I feel just how much the energy in my body refreshes and how the inspiration comes rushing in. Good thing I brought a notebook with me last time.
As this is the first moon of the new year (of you follow the mayan calendar with the 13-moon year), this is a time for setting intentions, for feeling what it is you really want (which is quite difficult actually, at least for me in this moment). Properly deciding which direction you really want to step in, is the beginning of all processes.

Decide what processes you want to start. What else do you really want to do?
Which direction will you take?
Post in the comments if you like. Maybe it will help you confirm it for yourself.
It is also very good to communicate very clearly to the Universe what it is you want, so it can go ahead and fetch it for you.

So for my processes:
I would like to go back to what my initial dream was for housing.. I have done quite some dreaming and what-iffing about this, now, I will let it develop in this material world.
Check out some of my dreaming material over here:

Volg het bord Living in a… van Dorien op Pinterest.

I also decided I will re-open my Etsy-shop soon - The Magical Life. I will add one thing at a time, so there is room to share the story of everything in it. The stories are about how magic is involved in our everyday lives and there is a wonderful bunch of spirit-animals involved…
That is also my aim with the store and my creations.. Help letting the magic creep back in all of your lives.. who-ever I can touch with this, hence; The Magical Life.

Soon to be continued!

Monday, August 4, 2014

On my desk - after a summer-break


On my desk at the moment… painted feathers!
I found these a while back, on a magical walk just near where I live. An enormous bush of goose-feathers was gifted to me.. like a trail trough the grass.
I will connect these to hairclips, so they can be easily worn in the hair.

I love to wear feathers, they somehow add a bit of bird-energy to mine and I like it! These are all goose-feathers.. I hope to work just with feathers I have found myself, to be sure it is in tune with nature.. that everything I use is a gift from Pacha Mama, then trough my hands, to you!
Maybe I will add some gemstones too, to lift the energy even more.

I will be at the Native Gathering in Deventer coming weekend, selling my creations, cards and books. Come along too if you can! There will be workshops, native music, dancing and prayers and beautiful things to see.

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

The dutch fiber shed...

Lately my room seems to have become a collecting place for fleece…
I've been intrigued with textile crafts for a long while now, as most of you might know. I spin yarn, knit, crochet, embroider and do patchworks… Weaving and natural dyeing is on my wishlist to learn, as well as felting.
Last week a friend of mine thoughtfully sent me this video, that I also would like to share with you, since it has inspired me enormously… It has a complete new (or old kind of new) look on clothing ourselves and how we treat getting our hands at our essentials, like food and in this case; fabric and clothing. Holistic, as she calls it, and regional. Oh, and the best part of it: mostly handmade, handdyed, natural, filled with loads of love in the making.

This got me thinking… I want to do this too! How could I use this inspiration and turn it to something I could do within my own business, over here in the Netherlands, with my skills and time?
And then it occured to me I already have a start lying around me in my room.

There is a wonderful flock of happy sheep in Zwolle, where I live, that grazes the grass around the roads in one quarter of the city. A year ago I bought a fleece there, to practice on.. (My spinning skills are quite good, but never good enough to my liking.) So this fleece is regional and happy.
They told me the fleece they have every year doesn't really bring up enough money, the sheering is almost more expensive. It would all be used for stuffing pillows and things like that.

Then some weeks ago I lent someone my handcards in exchange for a fleece of one of her sheep. (I'd say a wonderful deal..) And there it is! It turned up nicely packaged in a box.. Another fleece from not too far away. Another one added to my little collection.

Wool received from a kind friend

Then I also have another one in storage I got from a farmer nearby, he was just happy it would be actually used. It is from a blue texelaar.. This wool isn't suitable for dyeing, as it is dark, but it has a wonderful blue shine to it.. Wow.. I haven't gotten round to washing it yet though..

And then the last and best addition to my loft-collection (my room is in a small loft, and so now, filled with fiber…): a wonderfully soft alpaca fleece. This is the first sheering of this alpaca, I suppose it is about 1 year old now. I met him, what a gently, shy, cute little fellow. I cannot tell you how lusciously soft this fiber feels.. You could compare it to the way chocolate-caramel-icecream feels when it melts in your mouth.. Only I wouldn't eat this stuff.
The even more wonderful thing of this little alpaca's coat is that it was gifted to me by a keeper of these animals at the local petting zoo, here in Zwolle. So, again, this fleece is regional. And the ex-owner of it very cute.

Pile of alpaca fleece

I don't know what my ideas will turn out into with this concept, but I know I have the start of it right here. And it's smelling wonderfully of sheep and alpaca.

I would love to connect people that have animals and fiber that would love to see it being used in a more traditional, loving way and crafters - knitters, felters, weavers, dyers, spinners… But I'm not sure where to start yet.
Your ideas on this would be very much appreciated! Let me know what you think.
Or maybe you even would want to connect some dots in this.. Do you own sheep or alpaca's? Know of a mill here in the Netherlands that still processes fleece? Know fashion-students that could use this? Drop a comment below or send me a message..