I was planning on doing this for quite a while; sort out my things and throw everything out I don't need. Extra things clutter my living-space and head too.. When it's a mess here, I feel messy myself too.
I went to the thrift store about two weeks ago with two full bags of clothes, books and stuff. Today I got rid of my television.
I can't stand watching what is on it (except Dog Whisperer, together with my dad) and I think it would be best to have as few electronics in my bedroom as possible.
So, out with you, television (that was still rather cute for a electronic device)! I feel lighter already.
First off; thanks for the comments to my last post. I really appreciate it. It is good to know that what I write is read and doesn't just fall into the deep pit that is called internet. And that what I write makes sense and is recognisable. I am glad the 21st of december was mentioned too, because that was exactly what has been in my head for a while now.
What am I talking about? - Well in short, the transition to a new age that we call 'Age of Aquarius'. It is what the hippies where hoping and wishing for in the sixties and seventies.. The transition from a time of individuality and with that materialism and consumerism, living at a higher speed, to a time of living differently than we were before, slower, being in a group consciousness, back to our roots, mother earth, pacha mama. From a more masculine time to a feminine time. From the age of pisces to the age of aquarius.
And according to some, the 21th of december is the 'magical date'.. the official day that we will enter that new age. There are many different ideas and dates and numbers about this, but I think it is good to hold onto a day. The idea of this potential change makes me feel hopeful and happy and I feel like the world around me has been transitioning quicker and quicker. This might sound vague, but turn off the regular news program and check out all other news resources on the internet; there are revolutions going on. Peaceful and more violent ones. Green and earthy ones. It is the ultimate New Age cliché at the moment, but saying it makes me smile and the butterflies in my stomach flutter (what have I eaten?), so here it goes:
"It is happening!"
I have thought about wether to share this or not, but I like honesty and I figured this is part of my work process too. I like to think of my life and my visual work as entwined.
The problem with 'putting things behind you' is that unresolved things are never left behind. They linger somewhere in your body and wait for you to bump into them. Mine wait in my upper chest and creep up my throat.
When I was younger I had crying fits very often. Lately those has been coming back and since my yoga teacher told me those are precious and should be celebrated, I celebrate them. Tears are a sign of things dissolving, she says. They do deserve attention after all that 'putting behind me'. I find things that need to be felt and resolved.
Where do your unresolved things hide? Can you feel them?
More good news! I am now officially a member of R10, a place that supports creative entrepreneurs. It is also the place where I have my studio. It means I can stay for four more years (if I want to).
I also submitted my first tax form. I feel like a proper grownup now.. ;) I actually liked it a lot.. The arranging, playing with numbers. It is like a good puzzle with a reward at the end. "Thank you, we received your tax form, you have to pay €0."
And here are the t(h)ree paintings I promised. I don't have a good scanner yet, so for now washing line shots will have to do.
Sometimes you come across or experience something that happens to be just what you need at that moment. Do you recognise this? Coincidence? Or just the way life works?
Today I have to do a presentation about my work, my goals and my skills. I was feeling very nervous, so I figured this was a good time to finally write my 'business plan' that I was holding off to write for a while now.
So what are my goals? I am excited to go write this, since I love fantasising about all the projects I could do. Why am I postponing writing this? Am I afraid I will fail? Or am I afraid that others will find my goals ridiculous and immature?
I decided to go to a yoga class a few days ago to make myself relax a bit. Yoga always makes me feel better and cleaner somehow. The class happened to be a chakra yoga class. And then the topic of the class happened to be the manipura, the solar flexus chakra. Which happens to be the 'core' chakra of the willpower and the energy to manifest things. In what way do you want to direct your life? What is it you want? Go for it! - Just what I needed!
I often encounter or imagine these kind of 'coincidences'.
It makes me feel comfortable knowing that when life gives me lemons (or something to worry about), sooner or later the other ingredients for lemonade will be given as well.
